How come?

How come it seems so hard to please anyone? How come I can't be patient in things pertaining my young ones? How come it seems my wife is always upset with me?

I cant answer these things, maybe someone can for me. Has anyone driven 900 miles in one day to make a delivery on time? How come I enjoy sleeping on the side of the road? How come my dream vehicle is a Peterbilt 379 exhd with flattop sleeper? How come 125000 mile in a year seems like a good pay day? How come I still dream of driving? How come driving soothes a soul like mine? How come I cant seem to get any better? How come i must live with my pain?

When I wake up I must fight myself to get out of bed, not due to depression but do to pain. I just want to wake to a day with no pain and a giving heart that will be thankful for that day. Why do doctors always think that the best medicine is pharmaceutical. Why does the Government is willing to take my money freely, but when I need it they fight me tooth and nail?

Just remember if you are reading this on a whim and just came across this then thank you for reading and leave a comment and answer a few questions...... Musings from a Fat Man

Blood Test and such!

I went and did a blood test today! Oh fun you say. My arm is sore I also had one yesterday (in the same arm). Well i have had allot of time to think about thing lately and the state of the economy comes to mind. Is it stronger then we think? Or is it worse? can we all be hiding our money away from all the turmoil. This happens as a people we hide money and start paying off our debt! The price of goods go down and people just deal with the bare essentials. They go and buy a car only if it makes sense not because they love the color.
The United States will get through this. Whether you are a Dem or Repub. it makes sense that both ends of the government screwed the pooch on this one. If you look at areas where there is a low unemployment rate (Utah being one) it is because it is a diverse economy. Not one market or good dominates the region. Utah has many places looking to come here. we have Hershey chocolates coming in Ogden. we have in-n-out coming to draper and other cities in northern Utah. California just reported record unemployment rate (only Oregon and Michigan have higher rates). Sometimes people take themselves out of the job market by not excepting something that is "below" them.
Well a rant by the fat man is done!

Just hanging here!

I have been all over the computer lately. I have really been on the facebook apps andsome other sites. have had fun with fox13now.com. They have put up reporter cams that allows them get with the fans in between takes. really cool idea. I am having a blast being able to connect with people out there in cyberspace. well you all have fun as I go and watch Mickey Mouse club.

Watchmen

Hey. I watched the watchmen it was a great movie. There were some parts that I wouldn't have had. It was a great way to have an alternate life if things would have gone different in say veitnam. The people became as addicted as anything in the world wether it was Porn, sex, or herion. Life was a mess. the men and women of the wathmen needed to create peace in way that meant some people will need to die. people kept the peace as long as they thought a God like person was watching them. Good movie and you all need to go see. Please be advised that it is graphic and does contain language.

another Doctor another day

I have been to this Dr. once before. He is a Nuerosureon at the Univerity hospital. He never got my last Mri and Mra pics. Very disturbing news came from him. he told me that he doesn't think that the small fistula is a problem. I also have a cavernous sinus fistula. I have dizzyness and fatigue and nausea that is asoiciated with the Migraines. some doctors are a wait and see mentality and are fine with me on Disablity. if it takes this long then it shall take this long. I know their is something wrong with me and something is going to change. I don't want to be the point of a stroke or heart attack because the meds they give me make me gain weight in all the wrong places. At least i don't have a huge ASS. Thank you all for listening. Keep on trucking

My life

I just wanted to start a blog about my life. Today everyone has a blog and i do on My Space, but i thought i would start one on here. My wife has one and i always like to read it so I decided to start typing.
I'm a normal guy who has had a few set backs in the past the few years. I have be diagnosed with AV fistula and most recently convirous sinus fistula. They cause many different types of symptoms like migraines, dizzyness, nausea, and fatique. These have made normal life an hard issue. My daily activity level is bad somedays i can keep up for a little while but almost all days i am taking a nap just to make it to a normal bed time.
I have had a rough go at this and i am concentrating on getting back to a normal life.
thank you for reading.